Friday, March 31, 2006
  Thought of the moment: Down with Radio! I guess one last post will not hurt, I have a bit of time before getting ready for tonight. For the record, tonight has nothing to do with lewd and explicit acts with other guys, at least I am not expecting on do anything naughty. I am going to an "awards banquet" hosted by my mother's employer. I was the lucky one selected, over my brother, so I am going to lend my support in the special night that might recognize her five-year service to the company (both in Miami and up here). Anywho, my thought of the moment, for the sake of leaving an interesting post, is one that may be negative towards the radio industry. Is it sooo hard for radio stations, especially those that are owned by huge media companies, to post a playlist of their songs on their website. I know that any radio station operated under Cox Radio, will have a 48-hour playlist identifying the last songs played. It irks me when I have to memorize a section of the lyrics to the songs played in readio stations that don't ID their songs. To only go to a Lyrics search engine and find their are hundreds, perhaps thousands, of songs with the same lyrics. All because DJ's or the radio's director of programing or whoever in the corporate ladder, will not list the song's name and artist on their freakin' website! Its fine if the stations don't have two seconds to ID every song, just practice common courtesy and list the playlist some where. [Sighs] I have no hope for radio, even Clear Channel radio stations, they overplay songs that I already dislike and there are too many commercials. Thank God for iPods! If only I can find the names and artists of the of the songs I am looking for. -- P.S. By the way, I know that I can also E-mail the DJ's about song information, but half of the time, they have no clue or don't care to send me a reply. Plus, I have better things to do than typing E-mails and waiting for replies just for a song, like blogging. It's alright, I'll live through it. I am just get curious sometimes and I have to know to download the song. This was a very long post-script. 
  Some guys are wasteful This article is pretty old, it was published on March 14, but I decided to give a very late [and SHORT] commentary about it. According to the news article, by the Agence France-Presse (AFP) news agency, British male drivers waste six million hours on the road. Now, what surprised me was that most of that wasted time was found to be in result of stubbornness and refusal of asking for directions. Are guys, mostly straight, that egotistical that they prefer to get lost than stop in a corner gas station and ask? I, for one, do not like asking for driving directions, but that is because I am a very timid person. To prevent myself from getting lost and wasting time, I go to Google Maps [which I highly recommend anyone to use it, a lot more user friendly than MapQuest] and find my route to the unknown frontier with ease. Granted, this study was evaluating British guys, but the apple did not fall far from the tree [in this case, across "the pond"]. Optimistically, I will view male British drivers as guys that may be too shy to ask. But in reality, I do agree with the finding. My father was one lunatic that refused any suggestion from my mother to plea for driving directions. I leave you with a question, do you know anyone, including you, that is always lost when they are driving? -- P.S. Don't be surprised to not see me post something here until Sunday. If you miss me, just leave extra comments! [Yahoo! News: Male drivers waste six million hours a year] [Google Maps] 
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
  30-Question Adult Survey (I was Honest!) While jumping around online, I saw this survey on Brad's blog, an always interesting place to kill time. This is an open TAG. You see this and you are TAGGED! Copy the questions, answer them and put them on your blog. We will make Santa's job of filling out his list a little easier for him this year LOL! This is an adult survey. Be honest. If you aren't honest then what is the point. Have fun!!! 1. Ever been to a male strip club? I wish. I never knew male strip clubs existed. I guess not here in Florida or close to where I live. I know about male strippers at parties, but not clubs. The closest thing to male strippers is a gay night club in Orlando called Parliament House. Ohhh, now I am really craving for a lap dance. Is it allowed for me to perform a lap dance on a male stripper? 2. Ever been to a female strip club? No, but I have been around a female strip club, just not inside one. To be honest I will probably debunk any offers on going to one. It all depends on the type of crowd that I will be around with. 3. Ever been to a bar? Yes, but not to drink. I still have a year and a half for that opportunity. 4. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club? Why would they. I am an innocent college kid... Yeah, Right! The only time I have been kicked out from a bar was when I was in Las Vegas. I was "too close" to the bars all around the casinos. I still have time to live... and get kicked out. 5. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out? The closest I have been to getting intoxicated was when I drank a Margarita my mother gave me on Christmas Eve. I was aware of my surroundings (meaning not that drunk), I was just acting a wee bit queer (strangely hilarious) 6. Ever been so drunk you blacked out? Umm... NO! To be honest I am not looking forward on blacking out from being too drunk. But I know its inevitable. See the previous answer. 7. Kissed someone of the same sex (no relatives)? That's my fantasy! Sadly, not yet. 8. Thrown up from drinking too much? No... Never! If you read the past answer you may know why. What's up with these questions about Alcohol? :) 9. Had sex with more than one person in a 24 hour period? I guess this is when the sex questions begin. For the record in case no one is aware, I am a virgin (Both ways) to "same-sex" sex and "breeder" sex (credit to Brad!). I do not think I would be able to pull it off if I was that active, sexually. 10. Had sex in a car? That sounds uncomfortable. I was planning on several occasions to perform oral sex on guys from the AIM gay chat rooms, but they were too creepy. I am also happy that I never did because I am no whore... at least not yet! 11. Had sex in a park? Too public and I do not want to be bitten by ants. I would never do that. 12. Had sex in a movie theater? Again, I am a virgin but that would be nice place to do hand jobs and blowjobs (one-minute thing). Of course I would have to be in a theater with almost no one to do that. 13. Had sex in a bathroom? I know that many people think it is disgusting, but I prefer that than the park. I would have sex in the bathtub. 14. Had sex in a school? So then I would get called to the principal's office... NO WAY! I had too much respect for my principal, Ms. Fornell. She always jokes around with us and says " I am your Cuban mother", and in reality she acted that way. She had 4,500 "children" to take care of and watch us grow in the school she helped establish... Nostalgia! But I have a survey to complete. 15. Have you ever been in an "adult" store? I was planning to go into one when I was in Las Vegas, but there was nothing in sight in the Strip. The answer is NO, but I will go to one soon. 16. Have you ever purchased items from an adult store? No... see previous answer. 17. Have you spent over $100.00 in one visit to the adult store? Obviously, NO! but I would not be surprised if I did. Get all the Falcon, Bel-Ami, and other gay movies around. In a side note: Matthew Rush, Jason Hawke, and Jeremy Penn are my ideal porn stars. So any movie starring one of them would be a delight. 18. Is there someone you wished you never had sex with? All the guys I had cyber sex with. What a waste of cum. 19. Is there someone you wish you would have had sex with? There are a few...Somee are guys I know while others a male celebrities. 20. How many partners have you had? Let me see...Onee,two,three,four... How about NONE, Zero, Squat, Zilch, 0! Yes I am pathetic when it comes to same sex partners. All I had was a one week "relationship" with a girl, but there was nothing going on. No hugs, No kisses, nothing. Just a pat on the back from here to me. I am working on it though. I really want to start something with a guy. I just never got the chance. 21. Have youreceivedd oral sex? I would not want to I prefer to give. 22. Have you ever given oral sex? Only in my dreams... I know they will come true, but for that special someone. 23. Have you ever had a threesome? I love the concept of sharing, but only when I am the center of attention (with two guys, of course). Again, I am a virgin! I have never had an ounce of loving passion before. So this is all speculation. 24. Are your breast real? I surely hope so! As long as I do not need a bra, I am happy with mybosomss. 25. Have you ever used viagra (or anything like it)? I don't need it... Thank God. 26. Would you rather give or receive oral sex? That's easy... GIVE. I would allow myself toreceivee, but that's too awkward for me. 27. Have you ever kissed a stranger? On the lips... Twice, all from a dare. The two victims were girls, by the way. 28. How old were you when you first had sex? Do I really have to remind everyone again? 29. Have you ever had a one-night-stand? I predict that my first time with a guy (and with ANYONE), will most likely be a ONS. But No, I have not had one...Yett. 30. Were you honest in this survey? I sure was, who in this world would confess their virginity? But I am a proud virgin. Let's see if I get teased by any of you guys. REMEMBER IF YOU READ THIS YOU ARE TAGGED! YOUR TURN!!! --  
Monday, March 27, 2006
  Orange Update: Gators (and more) Edition The week after Spring Break has been good, and the new study regimen I decided to follow is proving to be somewhat useful. I have not been blogging lately, and I apologize, but I have been using any spare time to read my favorite blogs I love to visit. A vacation of some sorts from posting in my blog. I must say though, I kind of missed blogging so here I am... its only an update, but it's better than nothing, right?
  • To begin the update, I am so happy that the University of Florida has made it to the Final Four of the NCAA Men's Basketball Tournament. For those of you that do not remember me mentioning, or never knew. I am planning on transferring to the University of Florida after finishing junior college. UF has been considered a Football school, especially during the Steve Spurrier era of Gator Football. After Spurrier retired from coaching duties, the football program has been in a downfall that began with Ron Zook as the new coach. Hopefully with Urban Meyer, the replacement of the complacent Zook, UF will continue the winning Tradition with the 100th anniversary of Gator Football. Anyways, back to basketball, UF may also be considered as a great "basketball" college with the promising young team Gator Men's basketball coach Billy Donovan built.
    George Mason University, the big Cinderella team of the year, will be the next obstacle Florida will face... Go Gators!
  • I have not seen the female president drama Commander in Chief in a while. Geena Davis has done a great job portraying the first female president in the fictional TV show, airing on ABC. Davis even won an award for the part, and there are also other great actors that make up the cast of Commander in Chief. Including the very handsome and good looking son of the President, played by Matt Lanter. Known to many ladies and gay guys as a contestant in Manhunt, Bravo's reality TV show.
    Matt Lanter is the one on the far left
    The latest word is that there might be some conflicts behind the scenes and that the producer/director of 'Commander' is busy shooting a pilot for another show. What a bummer, this show had a potential of becoming the replacement of NBC's The West Wing. What a shame.
  • I have been tagged by Brad with his "X-rated" adult survey, so look out for that soon. Hopefully by tomorrow or Wednesday.
-- [Sports Illustrated: Gators top Villanova]
 
  Questions for Bryan Bryan is the first (and to be honest... Hopefully the only one) to ask for an interview. It will not be very interesting, but I want to ask personal questions so all of Bryan's readers may get to know his personal side. Bryan is a very good friend and unique fellow. I enjoy reading about him and chatting with him about anything interesting. He has a great sense commentary no matter the subject. Here ya go... Finally! 1.)You have told me, and I read from your blogs that you are very interested in the Samurai "culture" or code, and what it represents? Do you want to mention anything else, more in detail, about your love for the Samurai and how it began. Do you also share the same affinity with the Japanese culture, history, and tradition? 2.) Do you love the Commonwealth of Kentucky and living in Kentucky as much as I have the love and pleasure of living in the Great State of Florida? Also, explain your Likes and Dislikes of living in the Bluegrass State. 3.) Have you been to the Kentucky Derby or taken part of the weeklong festival that precedes the event? If not, will you love to take the time and participate in the "Greatest Two Minutes in Sports". 4.) I read that you decided to stop blogging in November, I won't obligate you to explain why but have you enjoyed blogging your second time around? 5.)Because I have nothing else to ask, I will make this the WILDCARD. Create a question and give an answer... that simple. I for one am looking forward to a question that will explains how you became gay. Well Bryan, what are you waiting for... GET TO IT!!!! :) -- [Orange's Archive: My Five Question Interview by Brad] 
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
  In a week's time I got a complimentary remark by a female friend of mine when I went to class Monday. At the time, I did not know if it was an odd statement or just something she sincerely felt. She said that I looked more mature than the week prior Spring Break. I asked her how she got the feeling of me being grown up... Was it that I did look physically more mature or was it my clothes and new hairstyle that made me look different in appearance? She laughed and said "it my be the new hairdo, but I feel you grown over the week". All I can think now is to give credit to my interviewer (Brad) and all of you guys that make blogging a personal enjoyment and a great way to challenge my thoughts and views in society. Because I honestly think that Five question interview post I made a few days ago revealed myself to all of you, and made me appreciate different viewpoints of the same issue. I guess that over the week's time, I matured... Big Time! -- In Other News: Bryan I am still thinking of good questions to ask you, I got two already. I'll visit your blog to research for the rest. Hang tight. 
  Impressions de France When I made an impromptu visit to Walt Disney World (I do not know how lucky I am to say that I can go to WDW anytime I feel like) with my friends Sunday, before classes began again, I was left with an impression and thoughts of France. Why would I think of a country that I did not get along? Let me mention that whenever I go to Epcot, which is my favorite park, I always have the plan to experience more of the World Showcase section of the theme park. I visited all of the attractions that each country hosted except for France, which it does not come to a surprise for me because I do not like the French too much and I will not get into much political detail. But because I am an open minded person I decided to watch the 20 minute presentation that was located in the French pavilion. WOW, Impressions de France really did leave an impression on me and gave me a new appreciation of the beautiful landscapes and landmarks found in Paris and the French country-side. The soundtrack of the movie really enhanced the experience and the direction and cinematography really added to the marvelous structure that we all know as the Eiffel Tower. What really topped the cake, though, was the segments of Normandy and the Mont Saint Michel (seen below). The picture though does no justice of the 200-degree view I had when I was watching the movie. It was almost like I was there!
Mont Saint Michel is located off the shores of Normandy
If there is one thing I have learned is that I can appreciate the beauty of the country and the history of the past alliances France and the United States of America has made. I was told that some of the French that admire the USA's history and as a country despise the American people. Of course I have to repeat and say that it is SOME French. I think that most French (or at least Parisians) look down upon Americans because of the numerous stories I hear from my mother and her friends that some French citizens ignore Americans when they visit as tourists. I also imagine if an American resides there, they receive the same treatment. Those are just speculation, and I have to experience that myself or get feedback from any of you guys reading... In the mean time, I will look down upon any French that think they are above everyone while I admire more views of the French country-side. -- [*Photo: I Googled Mont Saint Michel... Meaning it's not my property] [Wikipedia: Epcot and the World Showcase] [Wikipedia: Impressions de France (attraction)]
 
Sunday, March 19, 2006
  What a Break Well tonight is the last night to enjoy the nice and relaxing mood I am in, before classes begin tomorrow morning. I am happy that I got time off to free my mind from professors, projects, exams, and college stresses. I got to meet new friends through the blogosphere and I got to spill my beans and reveal my inner thoughts for all to comprehend. I want to thank all of you that commented, Kiss My Mike wrote a comment that probably explains in a better way to understand what I am feeling about the subject. I am so tired from doing something I did not expect on doing. I took my friends to Walt Disney World and stayed with them the whole day. I only wanted to stay for a few hours but that turned to a few more hours every time I looked at the clock. Disney is addicting no matter how many times I visit the place. No matter what happened though, I enjoyed my last day of spring break. Here's to a stressful week! May the final day of classes zoom by quickly and without pain... PLEASE!!! -- 
Thursday, March 16, 2006
  The Ultimate 5 Question Interview by Brad The five question interview I am about to post is something you might want to compare to a chain letter you get from a friend in your E-Mail Inbox (or Junk Mail, depends on your preference). But unlike the pesky forward messages that mandates the reader to pass it along to "ten friends in thirty minutes", this interview is a welcomed one and to be honest, it is quite degrading to compare it to chain letters. But I digress... My friend Brad, who I met just recently and started a blog not that long ago answered five questions he agreed to be interviewed on by a fellow friend of his. He is a great person and I consider myself very fortunate to meet such a wonderful person, along with my other readers I also consider as friends. After reading Brad's answers to the probing questions, I was inspired and agree to be interviewed by him. Now with careful thought, I decided not to torture you guys and answer all five questions in one post. Everyone, including Brad, has been itching to read my answers but house chores and family use of the laptop has delayed the process. Without further hold-up, let the probe begin! **[Start Interview]** 1.)Speaking of Orange, lets start there. You color the entire blog with the color and you name it that. I looked for references on what this implied, saw only one where you stated you are in the Orange faze of your life or something along those lines. Is this based off the Gay bandana/hanky code and if so I would assume based on your other writings you would wear it from your right rear pocket signifying roughly, "nothing now... just cruising." Or am I way off base and its significance is something else? Orange has been my favorite color since my pre-kindergarten days. I remember when I picked up a coloring marker (or a crayon, I can't remember) to draw and was fascinated with the bright Orange nature of the color. Let me get a wee bit off topic to include that I also considered chocolate my favorite from pre-k as well. Of course I have different favorite colors and they have a significant meaning to me, but the question is about the Orange. Besides being the first of my favorite colors, I decided to splash my blog Orange and include it in the title because its seen in the Gay flag. Green is also included in the rainbow flag, but Orange is much more one of a kind and I considered Orange a favorite before Hunter Green (a favorite because its one of my high school's colors). When I Mentioned that I am in the Orange phase of my life, it was part of the original purpose for this blog, describing my feelings about discovering myself as a guy that is attracted to guys, and girls. My first blog was part of my profile in MySpace.com and was basically what I considered this blog to be, but I felt I was missing a personal element of myself so I decided to create a second blog solely for the purpose to type my thoughts about my homosexuality (or bisexuality). I ceased to continue my first blog when I decided to change the purpose of this blog from a diary about my secret to a fusion of my first blog and this one, Orange Maze. I still codename my secret as my "Orange Secret", but I really don't name it like that to anyone. The Hanky Code, to pick up guys (or be picked up) in a gay bar or club, is an interesting concept that I never heard of until Brad mentioned. I'll probably put an Orange hanky (or any color) when I go to my first gay bar/club soon. But the answer is no Brad, sorry but at least you have taught me something new. To sum up with this question, Orange is now something more than a favorite color, its a part of me that signifies my quest to find out my sexual identity, my secret. Also the title "Orange Maze" signifies that my life is like running around in a maze trying to reach the end. The Orange Maze is just about me running around the maze I call life, with an Orange color scheme painted through out (perhaps indicating my "Orange Secret"). 2.) You seem to have a great knowledge of film and tv as well as actors/actresses and performers. How did this develop and do you have a similar love of reading? If so what types of stories and authors? Thanks for the compliment, in case you can't see me (which I think that is the case) I am seriously blushing. Like I mentioned to Bryan earlier, my affinity to film/TV/books is what amplifies my knowledge of what I love. In all seriousness, though, I am no expert even if I would love to be one. Its great to know that I am not the only one that shares the same excitement for the entertainment business, from my past blog posts I have seen many of you sharing my excitement and knowledge in film, especially when Brokeback Mountain was upset for the Best Picture award, but let's not get into that matter once more. I have always liked watching TV and later on movies, but my love and knowledge of film expanded when I took a film class my senior year of high school. I learned how to appreciate the artistic value of films and how its made from that class and the teacher that spread the film bug to me, Mrs. B. I also enjoyed leisure reading, meaning for fun not for homework, ever since high school when the principal started a daily reading program encouraging students to read books. My friend Justin was the one that got me into the Harry Potter books and watching (later reading) the Lord of the Rings trilogy. I must admit, I only completed reading the first LOTR book, the other two were too much for me to read. I enjoy reading anything interesting like science fiction, fantasy, murder mysteries, and I also started reading a historical non-fiction book about President Abe Lincoln. 3.) You also obviously love to follow sports. Do you or have you played them? This should be a short one. I would love to play sports and I'll give it a try if I am invited to play, for fun, but the only varsity sport I competed in high school was Track and Field. I was a long distance runner for my sophomore and junior years. I was not the fastest, I was always the last and slowest runner, but I learned that if I can't win the worst error I can commit is to never Finish. Although I prefer to forget the horrific practices in the Miami heat (not the basketball team), I will never forget the learning experiences as a high school student athlete. My Track and Field experiences are good for another blog post. Don't let me forget to mention it more in detail if you are interested in learning what happened that I consider my time as an athlete so special in my life. To sum up, I am more of a spectator but am willing to play any sport if I am invited (I am more willing if any of you invite me to play). I love cheering for my teams and wearing the team gears and colors. It gives me a sense of pride when I root for a team that I assume I was born with. I was one of the "School Spirit" guys that most people laugh at in high school. I never failed to wear my high school colors when I went to a game or a pep rally. I'll never fail to wear the Orange and Blue of the University of Florida any time the Gators play, once I become a student of the University. ...Next Question!!! 4.) I would like to hear more about your family life. Specifically, describe your feelings for mom and little bro. Think I can guess how you feel about mom, but want to hear you describe it. As for little bro? He is mentioned jokingly and in passing in your profile as a "pest." Think I know better there too, but tell us. Before I answer the question in full, the love for my family comes second only to God (I respect those who don't share my faith). Unlike what the Westboro Baptist Church, that Brad mentioned in his blog, believe that "God Hates Fags", "God Hates America", or God hates everyone who does not follow what the Westboro Baptist Church belief system, I believe that God is a loving divine being that considers humans his equal. You may wonder, how can I believe in God and be a Christian but is quite unsure if I am straight or not? Well I do, I am not a perfect example of a Christian guy, but I believe that God loves me the way I am. Is homosexuality wrong? The bible mentions its wrong, but I won't go into that issue right now. Its my religious beliefs that is keeping me from declaring myself a homosexual or a bisexual (that may partially answer question 5), and I want to make sure what I am before I label myself as anything but straight. I know that I am not the only one going through this questioning process, so I ask for patience and/or forgiveness, if appropriate. The last thing I want is to come across as someone I am not that will end up costing me a friendship. Now... Where was I? Ohh yes, the question about my love for family. Now I know how hard it is to stay on topic, Brad had a hard time, but I loved it when he did that because I learned more stuff about him. That's what I am trying to do with this post. I love my mother and brother very much (including my other family members... And dad). My mother has been a role model for me to look up to. She continued her education while raising two kids, with the help of my father. She worked in fast food, hotel housekeeping just to pay the rent until she got a fixed job in her career pathway. My father also worked hard, but was a victim of an accident while on the job that prevented him from working... That's a whole other bad dream with his employer to get compensated. My mother was and still is a hard disciplined worker but her courageous move to separate from my alcoholic father and how she kept my brother and I as a new three-member family is also what I admire of my mother. I still love and care for my father, its not me to hate him or ignore him no matter what he does, but I don't miss living with him and I feel that my brother shares my sentiment as well. My brother was closer to my father, it was harder for him to get accustomed living without him, but he later experienced how my drunk father acts while under the influence and obligated us to persuade my mother to return to him. The reasons why I don't miss my father is because he cared more about getting back with my mother, while they were separated and because he chose alcohol instead of loving his family (all three of us). The relationship with my brother is the same average brotherly relationship, but with a unique spin. I won't get too detailed, but he always protected me when we were younger. I also noticed a few years back, when my doctor joked that I needed an organ transplant, he quickly volunteered to give up his organ for me. That surprised me because we always found a way to argue and be different, but he was willing to help his older brother out. My little bro is kind of estranged, for lack of a better word, or more like our personalities do not match at all. All that we have in common is our favorite sports teams, favorite food, and that we love our mother very much. Despite that my little brother and I are totally different appearance wise (I am a Hispanic with a white skin tone and look like my father while my brother is a bit darker and looks like my mother) and personality, we love each other very much. I repeat, no one (not even my brother, mother, friends, family, pet) knows that I am attracted to guys or at least not at this moment. 5.) Starting from the very beginning of your blogging experience and working to now, you are VERY hesitant purposefully of labeling yourself sexually. Other than at one point saying in your profile that you were a "practising bi-sexual kinda." I notice you have modified the profile some LOL! You seem to lean heaviest towards guys in your writings. It seems that you are fighting an internal struggle with yourself big time on this issue. Where are you REALLY at sexually? Me, modifying my profile? How did you know such a thing, Brad? Well, I have to admit that I have changed my profile a few times, but it was all because I felt I need to clarify myself or because of grammatical errors. I mentioned this to someone before, I changed the layout and title of my blog a few times, but that was because they were purposefully considered as "working" or temporary. No need to fear though, I am not expecting to change any important details of my blog for a while. I revealed in the last question about my faith's belief in homosexuality preventing me, in a way, to declare myself gay or bisexual, but there is a more important fact that I will share to explain why I hesitate to call myself homosexual or bisexual. I have not had a gay experience, meaning an intimate relationship or a one night stand, yet. Of course I am attracted to guys and I am sexually aroused when I watch gay porn, or a Half naked stud, that maybe sufficient evidence for me to declare myself gay (or bi, because I am attracted to girls, just not sexually I think). But how am I suppose to declare myself anything when it comes to sexual orientation, if I have not kissed a girl or a guy in the lips, compassionately. I really never had a girlfriend and I am looking for an honest guy to call a boyfriend, to see if I really do love guys affectionately. Many adults have the excuse that I, and many other young guys and girls, are going through a "phase". I might be in an Orange phase, or I just have to find out... I don't know. When I am not sure of something, like my sexual preference, I am in a "no-man's-land" or in the middle. Right now, I am not finding a girl to have a relationship with, just to be friends, I am focused to find the right guy that is willing to be in a relationship with me. I have said to myself, once that day comes along and I figure out what I prefer, I will first declare myself gay or bisexual. To later then prepare to come out to people I know and love. Once I figure out the most anticipated question for me and you guys, "What is VJ's sexual preference?", I'll be more than happy to break the news to all of you. **[End Interview]** Whoa, that took longer to answer than I first anticipated but I completed it! I hope that you have enjoyed reading this probing interview, probably the most revealing and longest post I have typed up. Thanks for all of you that read every word, and those who skimmed through it (you have enough time to read it carefully soon). Most importantly, thanks to Brad for taking the time to interview me and for the greatest questions for me to answer. It's been an honor. Now, I know that many of you are also readers of Brad's blog but I will include the official rules to this "game" in case you would want me to interview you. For those of you who may want to be interviewed in this fashion, here are the Official Interview Games Rules: If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying, “interview me”. I will respond by asking you five questions - each persons will be different. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions. -- P.S. Please leave comments! If you need me to clarify my writing, I'll also leave a little reply in the "Comments" section. P.P.S. To Brad: Did I answer all of my questions, in detail.  
  Culpepper is back home, as a Miami Dolphin
Don't you fail me now, Culpepper!
The Miami Dolphins has another shot for a great Quarterback, a position left void since the retirement of Hall of Famer Dan Marino. The Dolphins decided to balk on the decision in signing former San Diego Charger Drew Brees to a new contract in order to trade for Daunte Culpepper from Minnesota. In my opinion, Drew Brees is not only hotter than Culpepper but I would of probably picked him over Daunte. But reports say that Brees was getting a bit "money hungry" with a contract so the Dolphins decided to pick up Culpepper. Brees, on the other hand, is now a New Orleans Saint. What is done is sealed and there is no turning back. Besides, Culpepper is not all that bad and only injured his knee last season, compared to Drew Brees' shoulder. I prefer to have a knee injured if I was a Quarterback. Welcome home Daunte, you have been a Florida Orange (native) since birth and played for the University of Central Florida. Your dream to play at your home state I also call my home, has been your dream for a long time. The best thing is that you picked the right Florida team to play for, the Miami Dolphins! GO FINS!! -- [Photo: Sports Illustrated] [Yahoo! Sports/Reuters: Culpepper hopes for new start with Dolphins]
 
  aMAZEing Quote: Ayya Khema on Suffering
"Human beings have this wonderful opportunity because of suffering. Instead of constantly resisting dissatisfaction, trying to sweep it under the carpet or lament and grieve about it and be pained by it, we should be grateful for it. It's our very best teacher."
I got this quote while I was searching for a Thomas Newman (a favorite composer, second only to John Williams) original song from the soundtrack of "A Series of Unfortunate Events". An Amazon reviewer mentioned the quote in the best place, considering that the Lemony Snicket story deals with suffering. My take on this quote is that everything happens for a reason, even suffering. If the suffering is an effect from mistakes or loss of a loved one, there is a learning purpose for the most horrific memory. The worst thing to do is just sit, ponder, and question God or any faith you believe in. In other words, The "Why Me?" thought. Sometimes we have to learn, face our fears, and stick our head up high and continue living your life. -- [Wikipedia: Ayya Khema]
 
  I have taken a leave of absence in order to concentrate on answering the questions. Ohh alright... It has taken longer than expected to clean my room and I am now starting on the questions that Brad has made for me. I promise you will not be disappointed, or at least that is my hope. -- 
Sunday, March 12, 2006
  Orange Update: Spring Break Edition
  • I got the opportunity to watch Crash, you know the movie as the one that upset BBM chance of Best Picture glory. To be fair, it was a film that was better than I expected it to be. Because I am Hispanic, part of a minority group that deals with discrimination and prejudice, I felt an emotional attachment to the movie. The dialogue is powerful, especially the scene when Sandra Bullock's character rants to her husband, played by Branden Fraiser, to change the lock of the house because she feared the locksmith was going to sell the keys to his "gang bangers". My summary of the film, no matter how much time I take to display the emotion, does no justice to the power of this film. Go Watch it! Now I just need to watch Brokeback Mountain to give my full opinion on the matter. Even if Crash is better than the "gay cowboy" movie, I still believe BBM should have won just for the sake of changing the minds of all Americans about homosexuals. We are all humans indeed.
  • I rode Expedition Everest after getting off of work Saturday. Some of you will probably remember that I tried to ride it during Cast Member (codename for a Disney theme park employee) previews in January, but the ride brokedown before I set foot on the "base of the mountain". I was expecting more out of the attraction, but it did not fail to impress me. I guess I'll need a second opinion, don't be surprised if I ride it again next month when it officially opens on April 7th, 2006.
  • After a hectic period last week of cramming sessions and procrastination, I finally took my Biology and Trigonometry tests on Thursday. What a relief it was when I successfully completed the last test Thursday evening, now I am free for a week because of Spring Break. I have nothing planned other than staying put in my house, rest, watch movies, and of course, blogging. So expect me to come by here and update with some new posts and visit some of my favorite blogs to read.
This has been your Orange Update. Have a great day! --
 
  My Future Ride: All-New 2007 Dodge Caliber (Now accepting donations) I am happy with my set of wheels, even if it acts up and is expensive to maintain. The reality is that all automobiles are the same and attention is need to prevent it from malfunctioning. It is until recently that I figured out how important it is to check up on my car and keep it up to date. But even if I love my Mazda Protege, I have my sights on my "dream vehicle", it has changed from time to time and I recently changed my mind again on what my future car will be. The same way people appreciate the home they live in, it is improbable to believe no one has a defining "dream home" their present home does not fulfill. The same goes with the love of my current ride and the expectation of the successor, the all-new Dodge Caliber. Set to premiere later on this year with the 2007 group of vehicles. I may be teasing you when I mentioned I was accepting donations for my new car, but I am serious about my infatuation with the Caliber. It has great interior features including a cooler in the glove compartment for the canned and bottled drinks, folding rear seats (the Caliber is what I call a "hatchback", like the VW Beetle), and a connection that makes my music in the iPod Nano possible to hear legally in my car, without wearing my earphones. The exterior looks great, in short words, I have no complaints. All I asked was to color my car Orange and its possible to have the Caliber ordered with an Orange color scheme in and outside of the car. My mom shares my excitement for the new Dodge Caliber. She mentioned that she'll pay the down payment for me, so its a step forward for me as long as I find a way to pay the rest of my bills of the car. I am hopeful, but lets see what happens. --  
Thursday, March 09, 2006
  The Century Mark: 100th Post What a milestone, I have lived to type 100 posts about my life and my thoughts. I want to thank every one of my readers: Ryan (One of the first bloggers to leave a comment), Mike, Elmo (he loves everyone), Brad (I think you have the honor of being the first to read my whole entire blog), Bryan, James, DJ (I know you are still reading, he left me the first comment) and all of you who come back time after time. If I left you out of the "Thank You" list, just leave a comment and blame my memory for doing such a crime. Here is to 100,000 more posts, but I am going to take baby steps. So how about 100 more posts, that's more realistic. If there is one thing I want to accomplish while I am a blogger, is to make new friends. Luckily I have done just that. -- P.S. By the way, I have passed the 1,000th mark when it comes to visitors a few days ago. 
  My American Idol: Chris Daughtry
O Thank Heaven. Too bad he's taken.
Just when I thought American Idol was going to be a bust, it surprises me and the nation in being the top rated show for the past several weeks. I have always theorized that American Idol will lose viewers once the auditions phases down especially when there are no more horrible singers and characters to laugh at. I went in denial on the popularity of the show, especially during the Olympics (which I saw), but I had to admit and accept that fact that American Idol is far from being yesterdays news. It not only beat the Winter Olympic coverage in NBC, it is also draining viewers from other shows being aired at the same time AI is playing. I finally jumped in the bandwagon, even though I have mixed emotions about Ryan Seacrest. Not only because he is annoying, he demoralized the Winter Olympics!! He made a comment that if any one watching felt they were missing on the Winter games, Randy would volunteer and oil his round body and luge down the set. Ohh Seacrest, you thought it was funny, but now I despise you more then ever... Bitch! To be honest, I really don't hate Ryan, yes I am upset about the comment, but it was just a joke... No harm done. Anyways, Chris Daughtry is my favorite to win AI. He is handsome, beyond good-looking, he has a great voice and singing style that is one of kind. Out of everyone in AI, girls and boys, I am most likely buying a CD from Chris... Maybe Ace Young as well. Ace did great last night with singing Michael Jackson's unheard single "You give me butterflies". I am begging America to please not let me down. I want Chris to be the next Idol. Why am I so desperate for him to win? My favorite in AI's first season was Tamyra Gray, she was voted off from the top finalists. Last season, my favorite was Mario Vazquez but he withdrew from he competition for personal reasons. Do you get the drift? I can't wait for the opportunity to hear the sound of Chris' voice traveling from my iPod Nano to my earphones... That will be the day! -- [Photo: J. Viles/American Idol,FOX]
 
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
  Cashback and Harry Potter (Year 4) I have loved watching short films ever since my mom bought our first DVD player in 2001. If my memory serves correctly, the DVD player brought a free DVD with the package about the Sundance Film Festival. There was a special section in the DVD featuring four short films. My mother and brother did not appreciate the experience of watching great short films because it was too short. I personally love short films (aka shorts) because it has a better artistic quality. Fast-forward five years to 2006, and the short film bug bit me again. I remembered how much I enjoyed watching those shorts five years ago that I was motivated to find information on the nominated movies for the Best Live Action Short Academy Award. I found out for the Internet Movie Database website that Cashback (one of the Oscar nominees) could be downloaded from iTunes (which I have). Great News! The better news was that I could also download all the Oscar nominees as well. Cashback is basically about a guy that works in a British grocery store and uses his imagination to freeze time, in order to make his shift go by quickly. While time is frozen, he undresses women and draws them nude but in an artistic taste. I enjoyed the first half of the movie, before I started watching boobs and female genitals. One reason is because there is a specific scene that is very homo-erotic, when a guy grabs a sausage and his friend makes believe he is giving him a blowjob. Is this what straight British guys do when they are bored while working in a grocery store? If it is, it's hilarious. All in all, I LOVED Cashback. Even more than most of the full length films I have seen. Cashback is a short movie you can see dozens of times and not get bored of the story, its that good! What really surprised me was that Sean Biggerstaff is the main character in Cashback. For those Harry Potter fans, Sean played Gryfindor Quidditch captain Oliver Wood in the first two HP movies. Talking about the boy wizard, Harry Potter was released yesterday (I am sure Bryan knows about that). I could not resist and bought the Special Edition DVD and the first Harry Potter movie to complete my (Years 1-4) DVD collection. Unfortunately, I have not completed watching the whole movie yet. And I never got to watch it when it was in theaters, which is more unfortunate... ehh, maybe not really unfortunate. I survived waiting longer than usual. --  
  "Brokeback" Theory There has been many speculation on why Brokeback Mountain lost the title as the Best Picture by the Academy (AMPAS). I have read articles from journalists and film critics that explain that Crash was a formidable winner that "we never saw it coming", meaning that Crash had its merits it was just not well recognized as Brokeback Mountain. To be honest, when the Oscar nominations were announced, I had no idea of the movies Crash and Capote. For Brokeback, being nominated to many categories including Best Picture gave me the impression that the Academy was going to start a movement for Gay rights. As fast and glorious the nomination for Best Picture came in, the joy and hope was blast down just as fast on Sunday. All I can say is that at least Brokeback got the nomination, that's better than no recognition, at all. Just like I read in Towleroad (the Blog), having the film made was already the real prize. I feel the same sentiment. In another article, I read Lionsgate gave Crash DVDs to the full membership of the Screen Actors Guild so they can view the movie at home. This campaign helped Crash because not only did it refresh the film's storyline to voters, but being that many live in Los Angeles (where Crash takes place) many Academy voters related to the racism in the movie. Is it a case of geography and film locations that dictates who gets the Oscar? I think so. Brokeback was filmed in Canada which probably ticked off some of the SAG union members and Academy voters. Or is it a case that Academy voters were "not ready for a gay cowboy movie". I guess so because it has been brought up to the attention of the media that many voters were too uncomfortable about the subject. I guess my film teacher was right, its all about politics when the Academy selects a winner for any award. To sum up, just because a film garners awards by the dozen before the Academy Awards, does not guarantee film makers will take Oscar home. In fact, Academy voters might back off from the bandwagon and vote against the grain. -- P.S. I guess I will join other Americans in rushing to the rental movie store and snatch a glimpse at Crash. While I am there I'll probably take home Brokeback Mountain (If its out on DVD yet) and other Oscar-nominated movies to see for myself what I have been missing. [Yahoo! Movies (Reuters): Why Brokeback Lost] [Yahoo! Movies: Should have seen signs of "Crash" coming]  
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
  Orange Update: "So Soon" Oscar Edition I would have never thought I would have a brief update blog so soon. But to be honest I prefer to leave a number of brief posts than to write nothing. I guess updating my blog is the responsibility I have succumbed to when I decided to start my own blog a few months ago and I do not want to keep my readers waiting. With the Academy Awards happening a couple nights ago, I guess I should comment at least on one thing... I was so shocked that Brokeback Mountain was out-done by Crash for the Best Picture award. I have no problem with Crash getting Best Picture, I love underdog upsets, but I just wanted Brokeback Mountain to receive the highest honor as Best Picture from the Academy of Motion Pictures, Arts and Sciences. For me, which is hard to say without getting the opportunity to watch Brokeback, I was considering a win for the cowboy love movie as a platform to promote gay rights. A stepping stone, if you will, or a momentum changing night so then people all across America and the world may see that two guys/girls loving each other is just as humane as a heterosexual relationship. I have an article that I found on Yahoo! that analyses different theories on why Brokeback Mountain was shorthanded from a big win, I'll blog on that and many other findings later. All I can say now is congrats to all the winners. A lot of my favorites did not win, but at least all of the winners are deserving. Including those I picked to win (5 out of 6 is really not that bad of a record). --  
Sunday, March 05, 2006
  My Prediction: The Oscar goes to... It's that fabulous time of year again when the fine looking Oscar statuette is given away to it's new owners and well deserved winners, well maybe not well deserved. Sometimes the favorite nominees take the coveted prize, while other times a previously snubbed nominees gets a pitty award. Let me be frank, Denzel did not do a great job in Training Day, I think he did a better job in the movie Philadelphia. But that's my opinion. I would love to make this post a long one but I have to groom myself into a Hollywood superstar for tonight. Not to mention, I have to do homework!
At first, I thought "Oscar" was holding a microphone (with the microphone stand), but I later found out it was a knight's sword. Silly me!
BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESS: Rachel Weisz (I pick to win) BEST ACTRESS: Felicity Huffman (my favorite to win) Reese Witherspoon (I pick to win) BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR: Matt Dillon (my favorite to win) George Clooney (I pick to win) BEST ACTOR: Joaquin Pheonix (my favorite to win) Philip Seymour Hoffman (I pick to win) *sorry Heath Ledger BEST DIRECTOR: Ang Lee (my favorite and my pick to win) *Steven Spielberg and George Clooney are worthy, but Ang Lee brought us Brokeback Mountain BEST PICTURE: Brokeback Mountain (my favorite and my pick to win) *I think this year all films for best picture are worthy motion pictures, a contrast from last year. I had no favorites, just Ray. -- [Oscar.com: Official website of the Academy Awards] [Orlando Sentinel: Who will win (My cheat sheet)] [MSN Movies: When the Academy feels guilt]
 
  Proud to be an American... And to Support the Troops (not the War)
It's only right to write about America, after I wrote about Canada.
So many things to write about, but where to begin... Got it! Let's start with my last post. I want to reiterate that I am, in no shape or form, ashamed of being an American or hate to be an American. If I would have to describe a righteous feeling of what I feel as a proud American, it would be disappointment. I am disappointed on the polarization of this country that I blame on the leader of this nation. President Bush gives a bigger priority in fighting a false war, that many people do not support, than to protect Americans from an imminent disaster like Hurricane Katrina. Now we know that he was fairly warned about the possible destruction of Hurricane Katrina, but decided to brush it off as a joke. All in the cost of millions of lives lost and changed, forever. President Bush and his administration complacently took the advice and failed to prepare for the war against nature. If my memory serves correctly, wasn't there reports that the Bush administration failed to act and prevent the attacks of September 11th from happening. I understand that no one is perfect and that many people make mistakes. I forgave Bush for passing on intelligence about the 9/11 attacks, but to do the same mistake on Hurricane Katrina... That's just nuts. I am disappointed because I believe that America can do better. America is being led by incompetent leaders (to be fair on President Bush), that same the same mistake twice. The late, President Ronald Reagan, was a Republican and in my opinion a great leader. The reason why I point that out is I am not picking on Bush because he is not a Democrat, he is deserving of my rants because the latest findings and polls indicate the majority of proud Americans have no confidence in President Bush and his administration. For that reason, that disdain is trickled down and felt by our American troops serving in Iraq. In the St. Petersburg trip I made a few weeks ago, in the final night of the conference when all of my colleague and fellow students from all across Florida was treated not only to food and entertainment for the accomplishments from the four days of the event. I was touched when the Florida Junior Community College Student Government Association (that was a mouthful) recognized a Marine that returned for a tour of duty just a few months back. He indicated that he was proud of being a Marine, mentioning the motto of the USMC "Semper Fidelis", always faithful. Even though he may not agree, or sure, the reason why he was in Iraq, he along with his fellow Marines were faithful to the USMC and to the United States of America. He expressed concerns that Americans who do not support the war, are not giving the support to the troops. "We are all different with adverse values and beliefs, I myself am different because I do not believe we were brought to Iraq for the right reasons. Even if you do not support the war and our Commander in Chief, all I ask of you and all Americans is for your loyalty and appreciation", that's what that Marine said in the dinner. In Ryan's blog posts, he took the time to thanks all troops and inspired me to go on the next step and thank all American soldier serving in Iraq and all around the world. Ryan along with me, have reasons why we are not enlisted to serve. I totally respect his reasons and believe he is not a coward for not serving a country that rejects his rights as a homosexual. With that mentioned I respect and have more admiration for all homosexual soldiers that have to hide a part of themselves to serve a country that fails to overcome intolerance and grants us equal rights. It reminds me of a story I saw in the closing ceremony of the XX Olympic Winter Games of Torino. Tom Brokaw interviewed an African American soldier of WWII, considered as a hero in Italy and finally got his recognition with a Medal of Honor, awarded to him by President Clinton. In short, Vernon Baker led his all black infantry division after his white commanding officer abandoned his post. Despite fighting for a country that demoralized African Americans, he said that "If we were not fighting for America, then who are we fighting for. The Country [USA] is all we have." It took decades before he has rewarded with highest achievement, the Medal of Honor. I foresee that homosexual soldiers will get the rights that many deserve. All that we have is to hope and have faith that one day the US government will do the American thing and treat everyone equally. I am disappointed, but I am hopeful that America will soon prosper the same way or Founding Fathers intended it to be. Once again, Thanks to all the American Soldiers. You are all brave and deserve a lot more respect than what you are getting right now. If only I can get to hug and shake the hands of all of you guys, may it be that they are male or female, gay or straight, hot or not (just a little joke). God Bless America, and Our Troops. May they all come back safely home. -- [Ryan's Blog Post: Support the Troops] [NBC Olympics: Lasting Valor (Story of Vernon Baker)]
 
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
  The Canadian Perspective
The National Flag of Canada (a.k.a. Maple Leaf). The pride and joy of all Canucks.
It's very interesting to observe things from another point of view. While I was browsing the Canadian Broadcasting Corporation, after I read Olympic-related commentary that CBC did a better job covering the Winter Olympics than American network NBC, I could not stop to imagine how life in Canada really is like. I obviously do not hear news about a major problem with Canadians fleeing their country to immigrate here. Besides, in my opinion, there is no need to because their government, or at least the lifestyle of all Canadians maybe the same or even better than the USA. Now, I do not want anyone to get the idea that I am unpatriotic, or that I hate this country because it is not the message I want people to interpret. I love this country and the history behind it. I even love all of my fellow Americans, although I may not agree with all of them. Just because I, and many others that may share a part of my opinion, disagree with the government, it does not entitle me as being shameful of my American roots. With that mentioned, I digress... One reason why I would say life may be better in Canada is because of the news article I read Monday about Quebec (A province or state in Canada) priests questioning the Vatican on their position on homosexuality. In some cases, they refuse to "promote" a priest if a Catholic official suspects him as a homosexual. If you may permit me to get off topic here, why don't the Vatican and therefore American officials worry about priests that are molesting children instead of refusing deserved promotions for homosexual priests. If not, then punish pedophile priests to level the playing field. The Vatican along with the non-religious American government should learn how to sort their priorities. Being a homosexual is not a punishable crime. If Canada and heavily Catholic Spain, among other countries, have no problems granting civil rights to homosexuals, I do not see why the USA (My home, sweet, home) can not do the same and follow our Constitution. A priceless document so important, that citizens from around the world study every word, some thing not every American does (including me). Anyways, back on topic, would it be curious to know how it is like to be a Canadian for a day. I do not see myself other than an American residing in Florida, so I am not planning to flee my country any time soon. It is just that I would like to know how life is like in another country, similar to mine. The same way that Team Canada has been close behind Team USA in the past two Winter Olympics, when it comes to its athletic prominence, so is the country of the Maple Leaf breathing down Uncle Sam's neck. I wondered why a good friend of mine, that I just met through the blogosphere, planned to move to another country later on, in his life. I now understand why, even though I am staying put on this side of the border, I respect his decision even more. Well, on second thought, if Americans do not elect a Democrat (and maybe, a Woman), I may consider on becoming an American Canadian... With very, very careful thought... OK, maybe not! -- [CBC News: Quebec priests challenge Vatican on homosexuality] [Wikipedia: The Flag of Canada]
 

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    >Bryan:
    It is true that UF has an extensive reputation as a great academic institution, I feel bummed I left that part out but I wanted to focus more on the sports. You did prove a good point.

    -->>Mike:
    I never knew that he coached at Marshall, but he did for a couple of years. I did not even know Marshall was in WV. Thanks for the comment, now I know there is other universities beside the great West Virginia University.

    -->>Brad:
    The COWBOYS??? I'll live thinking that you are a Cowboys fan, I dont hate them anyways. Its a lot better than being a Patriots fan or worse... a Jets fan! I mostly watch playoff rounds and championshps when it comes to all other sports like the World Cup of soccer and the Stanley Cup.3/30/2006 09:05:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Kiss My Mike|W|P|I'm rooting for UCLA. I actually want UCLA and UF in the finals!3/31/2006 04:22:00 PM|W|P|Blogger V.J. Civic|W|P|I am decent follower of all Pac-10 teams. USC, UCLA, Cal, ASU, Oregon... I love all of them even though a few are heated rivals, but I don't care because the colleges are too far away to be rivals of an East coast school, like UF.

    I hope its UF and UCLA in the finals! I don't want LSU to advance (SEC rival to the Gators). Of course UF will win it all, but we gotta beat George Mason University first.3/27/2006 12:11:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|Bryan is the first (and to be honest... Hopefully the only one) to ask for an interview. It will not be very interesting, but I want to ask personal questions so all of Bryan's readers may get to know his personal side. Bryan is a very good friend and unique fellow. I enjoy reading about him and chatting with him about anything interesting. He has a great sense commentary no matter the subject. Here ya go... Finally! 1.)You have told me, and I read from your blogs that you are very interested in the Samurai "culture" or code, and what it represents? Do you want to mention anything else, more in detail, about your love for the Samurai and how it began. Do you also share the same affinity with the Japanese culture, history, and tradition? 2.) Do you love the Commonwealth of Kentucky and living in Kentucky as much as I have the love and pleasure of living in the Great State of Florida? Also, explain your Likes and Dislikes of living in the Bluegrass State. 3.) Have you been to the Kentucky Derby or taken part of the weeklong festival that precedes the event? If not, will you love to take the time and participate in the "Greatest Two Minutes in Sports". 4.) I read that you decided to stop blogging in November, I won't obligate you to explain why but have you enjoyed blogging your second time around? 5.)Because I have nothing else to ask, I will make this the WILDCARD. Create a question and give an answer... that simple. I for one am looking forward to a question that will explains how you became gay. Well Bryan, what are you waiting for... GET TO IT!!!! :) -- [Orange's Archive: My Five Question Interview by Brad]|W|P|114348131979632723|W|P|Questions for Bryan|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/27/2006 02:03:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I'll get right on these, my friend. Answers to follow soon. Thanks for the kind words, V. J.3/22/2006 07:15:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|I got a complimentary remark by a female friend of mine when I went to class Monday. At the time, I did not know if it was an odd statement or just something she sincerely felt. She said that I looked more mature than the week prior Spring Break. I asked her how she got the feeling of me being grown up... Was it that I did look physically more mature or was it my clothes and new hairstyle that made me look different in appearance? She laughed and said "it my be the new hairdo, but I feel you grown over the week". All I can think now is to give credit to my interviewer (Brad) and all of you guys that make blogging a personal enjoyment and a great way to challenge my thoughts and views in society. Because I honestly think that Five question interview post I made a few days ago revealed myself to all of you, and made me appreciate different viewpoints of the same issue. I guess that over the week's time, I matured... Big Time! -- In Other News: Bryan I am still thinking of good questions to ask you, I got two already. I'll visit your blog to research for the rest. Hang tight.|W|P|114307365284124366|W|P|In a week's time|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/23/2006 07:20:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|The quiz may have helped you realize more of your maturity. But, in reading your blog and in our few conversations, emails, and such you've exhibited a level maturity that most 19 year olds just don't show. You're well deserving of that praise.

    ...as for the quiz, I eagerly await. :-)3/24/2006 12:31:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|Tried to write all this last night on here and blogger was fuckin up bigtime and not letting me post. Had several people today tell me samething was happening trying to post to me. Reading some of the HNT sites today I see it was happening everywhere last night. Anyway....

    My friend you have been maturing all on your own and all along. YOU had already been exploring these things in your mind and here on your blog.
    In what you just wrote here and in the comment from your friend there I get the feeling that there IS a change in you mentally. Somehow you are PROJECTING more confidence, or happiness or a sense of well being SOMEHOW.
    It was NOT my questions VJ. It was YOU exploring yourself... coming to grips with certain items in your life and accepting and "being good with them" in your OWN mind!
    Once you explore yourself HONESTLY and figure out who you really are and can be HAPPY with who you are... it becomes evident to others. You still have some issues you are still exploring and trying to resolve. Just wait to see how you feel about yourself once those are "water under the bridge!"
    The more honest and truthful you can be with YOURSELF and then LIKE yourself with who and what you are... the more POWERFUL your natural attraction is to others. People FEEL a persons self confidence in themselves. Its a powerful magnet.
    What is happening to you has not one damn thing to do with me my friend... other than I was fortunate enough I guess to ask SOMETHING that made you realize something IMPORTANT about yourself in YOUR OWN MIND.
    The beauty of you is YOU. It is NOT something anyone else does for you.
    I have gone long here I apologize. But I will say this... watching you develop over the next few years into what the ultimate you is going to be will be fun and rewarding. Even if God forbid... you decide you are straight! LOL!!!3/24/2006 09:55:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|have a good weekend bud.3/22/2006 06:30:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|When I made an impromptu visit to Walt Disney World (I do not know how lucky I am to say that I can go to WDW anytime I feel like) with my friends Sunday, before classes began again, I was left with an impression and thoughts of France. Why would I think of a country that I did not get along? Let me mention that whenever I go to Epcot, which is my favorite park, I always have the plan to experience more of the World Showcase section of the theme park. I visited all of the attractions that each country hosted except for France, which it does not come to a surprise for me because I do not like the French too much and I will not get into much political detail. But because I am an open minded person I decided to watch the 20 minute presentation that was located in the French pavilion. WOW, Impressions de France really did leave an impression on me and gave me a new appreciation of the beautiful landscapes and landmarks found in Paris and the French country-side. The soundtrack of the movie really enhanced the experience and the direction and cinematography really added to the marvelous structure that we all know as the Eiffel Tower. What really topped the cake, though, was the segments of Normandy and the Mont Saint Michel (seen below). The picture though does no justice of the 200-degree view I had when I was watching the movie. It was almost like I was there!
    Mont Saint Michel is located off the shores of Normandy
    If there is one thing I have learned is that I can appreciate the beauty of the country and the history of the past alliances France and the United States of America has made. I was told that some of the French that admire the USA's history and as a country despise the American people. Of course I have to repeat and say that it is SOME French. I think that most French (or at least Parisians) look down upon Americans because of the numerous stories I hear from my mother and her friends that some French citizens ignore Americans when they visit as tourists. I also imagine if an American resides there, they receive the same treatment. Those are just speculation, and I have to experience that myself or get feedback from any of you guys reading... In the mean time, I will look down upon any French that think they are above everyone while I admire more views of the French country-side. -- [*Photo: I Googled Mont Saint Michel... Meaning it's not my property] [Wikipedia: Epcot and the World Showcase] [Wikipedia: Impressions de France (attraction)]
    |W|P|114307146773535243|W|P|Impressions de France|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/23/2006 12:59:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I can't really add much here, as I pretty much agree with you. A fellow artists friend of mine tried living there while he was studying, and found so much ill sentiment towards Americans that he came back home.

    France is rich history though. And in art and architecture. And as you said, its not the entire country. Just some of the people.

    Mont Saint Michel, is one of my favorite architectural structures, since back in college. Its an excellent pic.3/19/2006 11:10:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|Well tonight is the last night to enjoy the nice and relaxing mood I am in, before classes begin tomorrow morning. I am happy that I got time off to free my mind from professors, projects, exams, and college stresses. I got to meet new friends through the blogosphere and I got to spill my beans and reveal my inner thoughts for all to comprehend. I want to thank all of you that commented, Kiss My Mike wrote a comment that probably explains in a better way to understand what I am feeling about the subject. I am so tired from doing something I did not expect on doing. I took my friends to Walt Disney World and stayed with them the whole day. I only wanted to stay for a few hours but that turned to a few more hours every time I looked at the clock. Disney is addicting no matter how many times I visit the place. No matter what happened though, I enjoyed my last day of spring break. Here's to a stressful week! May the final day of classes zoom by quickly and without pain... PLEASE!!! --|W|P|114282844142410890|W|P|What a Break|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/20/2006 02:09:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|Glad you enjoyed your time off my friend. I am thinking I need a weeks vacation. Not go anywhere. Just regroup. Not like I dont have plenty of days to take since I have 2 MONTHS worth of leave on the books LOL! Thanks for your support friend. Have a great week!3/20/2006 08:19:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|sounds like u had some fun. hope u ease back into school.3/22/2006 08:30:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I'm glad you had an enjoyable time, V. J. Ha Ha, Yeah that first day back after a leisurely vacation is SO difficult. TTYS, bud.3/16/2006 05:00:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|The five question interview I am about to post is something you might want to compare to a chain letter you get from a friend in your E-Mail Inbox (or Junk Mail, depends on your preference). But unlike the pesky forward messages that mandates the reader to pass it along to "ten friends in thirty minutes", this interview is a welcomed one and to be honest, it is quite degrading to compare it to chain letters. But I digress... My friend Brad, who I met just recently and started a blog not that long ago answered five questions he agreed to be interviewed on by a fellow friend of his. He is a great person and I consider myself very fortunate to meet such a wonderful person, along with my other readers I also consider as friends. After reading Brad's answers to the probing questions, I was inspired and agree to be interviewed by him. Now with careful thought, I decided not to torture you guys and answer all five questions in one post. Everyone, including Brad, has been itching to read my answers but house chores and family use of the laptop has delayed the process. Without further hold-up, let the probe begin! **[Start Interview]** 1.)Speaking of Orange, lets start there. You color the entire blog with the color and you name it that. I looked for references on what this implied, saw only one where you stated you are in the Orange faze of your life or something along those lines. Is this based off the Gay bandana/hanky code and if so I would assume based on your other writings you would wear it from your right rear pocket signifying roughly, "nothing now... just cruising." Or am I way off base and its significance is something else? Orange has been my favorite color since my pre-kindergarten days. I remember when I picked up a coloring marker (or a crayon, I can't remember) to draw and was fascinated with the bright Orange nature of the color. Let me get a wee bit off topic to include that I also considered chocolate my favorite from pre-k as well. Of course I have different favorite colors and they have a significant meaning to me, but the question is about the Orange. Besides being the first of my favorite colors, I decided to splash my blog Orange and include it in the title because its seen in the Gay flag. Green is also included in the rainbow flag, but Orange is much more one of a kind and I considered Orange a favorite before Hunter Green (a favorite because its one of my high school's colors). When I Mentioned that I am in the Orange phase of my life, it was part of the original purpose for this blog, describing my feelings about discovering myself as a guy that is attracted to guys, and girls. My first blog was part of my profile in MySpace.com and was basically what I considered this blog to be, but I felt I was missing a personal element of myself so I decided to create a second blog solely for the purpose to type my thoughts about my homosexuality (or bisexuality). I ceased to continue my first blog when I decided to change the purpose of this blog from a diary about my secret to a fusion of my first blog and this one, Orange Maze. I still codename my secret as my "Orange Secret", but I really don't name it like that to anyone. The Hanky Code, to pick up guys (or be picked up) in a gay bar or club, is an interesting concept that I never heard of until Brad mentioned. I'll probably put an Orange hanky (or any color) when I go to my first gay bar/club soon. But the answer is no Brad, sorry but at least you have taught me something new. To sum up with this question, Orange is now something more than a favorite color, its a part of me that signifies my quest to find out my sexual identity, my secret. Also the title "Orange Maze" signifies that my life is like running around in a maze trying to reach the end. The Orange Maze is just about me running around the maze I call life, with an Orange color scheme painted through out (perhaps indicating my "Orange Secret"). 2.) You seem to have a great knowledge of film and tv as well as actors/actresses and performers. How did this develop and do you have a similar love of reading? If so what types of stories and authors? Thanks for the compliment, in case you can't see me (which I think that is the case) I am seriously blushing. Like I mentioned to Bryan earlier, my affinity to film/TV/books is what amplifies my knowledge of what I love. In all seriousness, though, I am no expert even if I would love to be one. Its great to know that I am not the only one that shares the same excitement for the entertainment business, from my past blog posts I have seen many of you sharing my excitement and knowledge in film, especially when Brokeback Mountain was upset for the Best Picture award, but let's not get into that matter once more. I have always liked watching TV and later on movies, but my love and knowledge of film expanded when I took a film class my senior year of high school. I learned how to appreciate the artistic value of films and how its made from that class and the teacher that spread the film bug to me, Mrs. B. I also enjoyed leisure reading, meaning for fun not for homework, ever since high school when the principal started a daily reading program encouraging students to read books. My friend Justin was the one that got me into the Harry Potter books and watching (later reading) the Lord of the Rings trilogy. I must admit, I only completed reading the first LOTR book, the other two were too much for me to read. I enjoy reading anything interesting like science fiction, fantasy, murder mysteries, and I also started reading a historical non-fiction book about President Abe Lincoln. 3.) You also obviously love to follow sports. Do you or have you played them? This should be a short one. I would love to play sports and I'll give it a try if I am invited to play, for fun, but the only varsity sport I competed in high school was Track and Field. I was a long distance runner for my sophomore and junior years. I was not the fastest, I was always the last and slowest runner, but I learned that if I can't win the worst error I can commit is to never Finish. Although I prefer to forget the horrific practices in the Miami heat (not the basketball team), I will never forget the learning experiences as a high school student athlete. My Track and Field experiences are good for another blog post. Don't let me forget to mention it more in detail if you are interested in learning what happened that I consider my time as an athlete so special in my life. To sum up, I am more of a spectator but am willing to play any sport if I am invited (I am more willing if any of you invite me to play). I love cheering for my teams and wearing the team gears and colors. It gives me a sense of pride when I root for a team that I assume I was born with. I was one of the "School Spirit" guys that most people laugh at in high school. I never failed to wear my high school colors when I went to a game or a pep rally. I'll never fail to wear the Orange and Blue of the University of Florida any time the Gators play, once I become a student of the University. ...Next Question!!! 4.) I would like to hear more about your family life. Specifically, describe your feelings for mom and little bro. Think I can guess how you feel about mom, but want to hear you describe it. As for little bro? He is mentioned jokingly and in passing in your profile as a "pest." Think I know better there too, but tell us. Before I answer the question in full, the love for my family comes second only to God (I respect those who don't share my faith). Unlike what the Westboro Baptist Church, that Brad mentioned in his blog, believe that "God Hates Fags", "God Hates America", or God hates everyone who does not follow what the Westboro Baptist Church belief system, I believe that God is a loving divine being that considers humans his equal. You may wonder, how can I believe in God and be a Christian but is quite unsure if I am straight or not? Well I do, I am not a perfect example of a Christian guy, but I believe that God loves me the way I am. Is homosexuality wrong? The bible mentions its wrong, but I won't go into that issue right now. Its my religious beliefs that is keeping me from declaring myself a homosexual or a bisexual (that may partially answer question 5), and I want to make sure what I am before I label myself as anything but straight. I know that I am not the only one going through this questioning process, so I ask for patience and/or forgiveness, if appropriate. The last thing I want is to come across as someone I am not that will end up costing me a friendship. Now... Where was I? Ohh yes, the question about my love for family. Now I know how hard it is to stay on topic, Brad had a hard time, but I loved it when he did that because I learned more stuff about him. That's what I am trying to do with this post. I love my mother and brother very much (including my other family members... And dad). My mother has been a role model for me to look up to. She continued her education while raising two kids, with the help of my father. She worked in fast food, hotel housekeeping just to pay the rent until she got a fixed job in her career pathway. My father also worked hard, but was a victim of an accident while on the job that prevented him from working... That's a whole other bad dream with his employer to get compensated. My mother was and still is a hard disciplined worker but her courageous move to separate from my alcoholic father and how she kept my brother and I as a new three-member family is also what I admire of my mother. I still love and care for my father, its not me to hate him or ignore him no matter what he does, but I don't miss living with him and I feel that my brother shares my sentiment as well. My brother was closer to my father, it was harder for him to get accustomed living without him, but he later experienced how my drunk father acts while under the influence and obligated us to persuade my mother to return to him. The reasons why I don't miss my father is because he cared more about getting back with my mother, while they were separated and because he chose alcohol instead of loving his family (all three of us). The relationship with my brother is the same average brotherly relationship, but with a unique spin. I won't get too detailed, but he always protected me when we were younger. I also noticed a few years back, when my doctor joked that I needed an organ transplant, he quickly volunteered to give up his organ for me. That surprised me because we always found a way to argue and be different, but he was willing to help his older brother out. My little bro is kind of estranged, for lack of a better word, or more like our personalities do not match at all. All that we have in common is our favorite sports teams, favorite food, and that we love our mother very much. Despite that my little brother and I are totally different appearance wise (I am a Hispanic with a white skin tone and look like my father while my brother is a bit darker and looks like my mother) and personality, we love each other very much. I repeat, no one (not even my brother, mother, friends, family, pet) knows that I am attracted to guys or at least not at this moment. 5.) Starting from the very beginning of your blogging experience and working to now, you are VERY hesitant purposefully of labeling yourself sexually. Other than at one point saying in your profile that you were a "practising bi-sexual kinda." I notice you have modified the profile some LOL! You seem to lean heaviest towards guys in your writings. It seems that you are fighting an internal struggle with yourself big time on this issue. Where are you REALLY at sexually? Me, modifying my profile? How did you know such a thing, Brad? Well, I have to admit that I have changed my profile a few times, but it was all because I felt I need to clarify myself or because of grammatical errors. I mentioned this to someone before, I changed the layout and title of my blog a few times, but that was because they were purposefully considered as "working" or temporary. No need to fear though, I am not expecting to change any important details of my blog for a while. I revealed in the last question about my faith's belief in homosexuality preventing me, in a way, to declare myself gay or bisexual, but there is a more important fact that I will share to explain why I hesitate to call myself homosexual or bisexual. I have not had a gay experience, meaning an intimate relationship or a one night stand, yet. Of course I am attracted to guys and I am sexually aroused when I watch gay porn, or a Half naked stud, that maybe sufficient evidence for me to declare myself gay (or bi, because I am attracted to girls, just not sexually I think). But how am I suppose to declare myself anything when it comes to sexual orientation, if I have not kissed a girl or a guy in the lips, compassionately. I really never had a girlfriend and I am looking for an honest guy to call a boyfriend, to see if I really do love guys affectionately. Many adults have the excuse that I, and many other young guys and girls, are going through a "phase". I might be in an Orange phase, or I just have to find out... I don't know. When I am not sure of something, like my sexual preference, I am in a "no-man's-land" or in the middle. Right now, I am not finding a girl to have a relationship with, just to be friends, I am focused to find the right guy that is willing to be in a relationship with me. I have said to myself, once that day comes along and I figure out what I prefer, I will first declare myself gay or bisexual. To later then prepare to come out to people I know and love. Once I figure out the most anticipated question for me and you guys, "What is VJ's sexual preference?", I'll be more than happy to break the news to all of you. **[End Interview]** Whoa, that took longer to answer than I first anticipated but I completed it! I hope that you have enjoyed reading this probing interview, probably the most revealing and longest post I have typed up. Thanks for all of you that read every word, and those who skimmed through it (you have enough time to read it carefully soon). Most importantly, thanks to Brad for taking the time to interview me and for the greatest questions for me to answer. It's been an honor. Now, I know that many of you are also readers of Brad's blog but I will include the official rules to this "game" in case you would want me to interview you. For those of you who may want to be interviewed in this fashion, here are the Official Interview Games Rules: If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying, “interview me”. I will respond by asking you five questions - each persons will be different. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions. -- P.S. Please leave comments! If you need me to clarify my writing, I'll also leave a little reply in the "Comments" section. P.P.S. To Brad: Did I answer all of my questions, in detail. |W|P|114239551083376757|W|P|The Ultimate 5 Question Interview by Brad|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/16/2006 07:21:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|You did just fine my young friend. Very good and interesting answers. The one thing that concerned me as I read it is the wrapping your mind to much around the "religion thing." I too happen to be quite religious, just not part of an organized church. It happens to be the very subject of a post I intend to do probably before the weekend is out. Perhaps you can find something within it that helps you. Trust me VJ when I say MOST gay guys have wrestled with that same issue in some way or another.
    The interesting thing about these interviews is that the answers provide "follow up questions" you want to do LOL! But you did really well my friend and I and everyone else who reads you and loves you for the beautiful person you obviously are will enjoy them also.
    One other thing... you THINK family has no clue about your attraction. Remember I told you this if and when you DO decide you are gay and come out to them one day. Do NOT be surprised when one or both of your bro and mom say something along the lines, "We already knew. Do you think it MATTERS to us? We love YOU!"
    Also- you must read my response to your comment about my future care hehehe!
    Take care friend!3/16/2006 11:35:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Kiss My Mike|W|P|First, I have to give you props for answering the questions as truthful as you can.

    I share the same sentiments regarding having faith on religion. Like you, I also believe in a compassionate God who loves me for who I am. In a dogmatic sense, the fact that I'm gay is already enough to know my fate of being punished in hell. But this judgement doesn't come from God Himself. It is a judgement made by people who interpreted God's words in an almost wicked and unfair way. It wasn't my choice to be gay, so why is that I am judged for who I am and not for what I have done.

    Thus, I have settled for that thought that I'll let God judge in the end. As long as I don't step on other people's toes, or I don't have hatred against anyone, then my conscience is clear that I have obeyed what He had asked me to do: "Love Thy Neighbor as Yourself".3/17/2006 08:50:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|wow awesome answers and some more about u thanx so much 4 doing them 4 brad.3/17/2006 10:28:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I love reading your posts, man. You always exhibit such a professional demeanor and attitude, while at the same time giving account of what's going on in your world...

    ...we seem to have had some similar experiences in our childhood.

    Excellent answers. And Brad, equally excellent questions.

    V.J., since you decyphered my blog title in such an impressive manner, I'll bite. Interview Me.3/17/2006 11:57:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Mike|W|P|I completely understand about the drunk father. Mine was physically abusive as well. Your answers were well thought out and I know more about you now. Thanx3/17/2006 11:37:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Da Gal|W|P|VJ - I was here for only a brief time tonight... found you through elmo. You are a very wise young man and it is pleasing to find someone like you here - I can relate to what you say. I refuse to put myself in a box regarding most things in my life and I thought I'd let you know that at 35 years old I still haven't decided "what" I am regarding my sexuality... and now I have determined that I don't ever have to decide. I like guys.. I Like girls... doesn't matter what others think. What matters is what I think.

    Take care and I am sure you will have an amazing life! Meg3/16/2006 02:54:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|
    Don't you fail me now, Culpepper!
    The Miami Dolphins has another shot for a great Quarterback, a position left void since the retirement of Hall of Famer Dan Marino. The Dolphins decided to balk on the decision in signing former San Diego Charger Drew Brees to a new contract in order to trade for Daunte Culpepper from Minnesota. In my opinion, Drew Brees is not only hotter than Culpepper but I would of probably picked him over Daunte. But reports say that Brees was getting a bit "money hungry" with a contract so the Dolphins decided to pick up Culpepper. Brees, on the other hand, is now a New Orleans Saint. What is done is sealed and there is no turning back. Besides, Culpepper is not all that bad and only injured his knee last season, compared to Drew Brees' shoulder. I prefer to have a knee injured if I was a Quarterback. Welcome home Daunte, you have been a Florida Orange (native) since birth and played for the University of Central Florida. Your dream to play at your home state I also call my home, has been your dream for a long time. The best thing is that you picked the right Florida team to play for, the Miami Dolphins! GO FINS!! -- [Photo: Sports Illustrated] [Yahoo! Sports/Reuters: Culpepper hopes for new start with Dolphins]
    |W|P|114254024650273362|W|P|Culpepper is back home, as a Miami Dolphin|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/16/2006 05:10:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|Are you sure that guy isn't a killer whale instead of a Dolphin? BIG! Ha Ha.3/17/2006 11:53:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Mike|W|P|I loved hearing this. Now were gonna kick ass this year. All the Dolphins needed was a good quarterback and Ricky to stay off pot but that aint gonna happen.3/17/2006 11:38:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Da Gal|W|P|And he... like me is from Minnesota! woohoo!

    BTW.. the vikings suck. Oops did I say that outloud!3/16/2006 02:35:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|
    "Human beings have this wonderful opportunity because of suffering. Instead of constantly resisting dissatisfaction, trying to sweep it under the carpet or lament and grieve about it and be pained by it, we should be grateful for it. It's our very best teacher."
    I got this quote while I was searching for a Thomas Newman (a favorite composer, second only to John Williams) original song from the soundtrack of "A Series of Unfortunate Events". An Amazon reviewer mentioned the quote in the best place, considering that the Lemony Snicket story deals with suffering. My take on this quote is that everything happens for a reason, even suffering. If the suffering is an effect from mistakes or loss of a loved one, there is a learning purpose for the most horrific memory. The worst thing to do is just sit, ponder, and question God or any faith you believe in. In other words, The "Why Me?" thought. Sometimes we have to learn, face our fears, and stick our head up high and continue living your life. -- [Wikipedia: Ayya Khema]
    |W|P|114253845857485948|W|P|aMAZEing Quote: Ayya Khema on Suffering|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/16/2006 03:34:00 PM|W|P|Blogger karma lennon|W|P|So very true! Why don't more people realize this? :)3/16/2006 05:08:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|An interesting view of the eternal balance; no light without dark, no happiness without joy.

    It reminds me of something (I've either read it heard it, so I apologize for leaving this quote semi-open ended),..."Someone once asked the Buddha how do we escape the unbearable heat, this summer day. And the Buddha asked in return, Why not step into a blazing inferno?"...As you said, things are and things happen for a reason. I agree with you.

    The last paragraph in this entry is a good statement. Be strong-willed and be who you are regardless.3/17/2006 11:40:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Da Gal|W|P|Are you sure you are 19??? Great post. :)3/16/2006 09:50:00 AM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|I have taken a leave of absence in order to concentrate on answering the questions. Ohh alright... It has taken longer than expected to clean my room and I am now starting on the questions that Brad has made for me. I promise you will not be disappointed, or at least that is my hope. --|W|P|114252079873064688|W|P||W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/16/2006 02:29:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I admit, I'm really looking forward to knowing more about you, bud. I hope your vacation is going well.3/16/2006 06:44:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|*Tapping little bare gay foot again and thinking* Geez! What a tease! LOL.
    Looking forward to it my friend!3/12/2006 10:02:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|
    • I got the opportunity to watch Crash, you know the movie as the one that upset BBM chance of Best Picture glory. To be fair, it was a film that was better than I expected it to be. Because I am Hispanic, part of a minority group that deals with discrimination and prejudice, I felt an emotional attachment to the movie. The dialogue is powerful, especially the scene when Sandra Bullock's character rants to her husband, played by Branden Fraiser, to change the lock of the house because she feared the locksmith was going to sell the keys to his "gang bangers". My summary of the film, no matter how much time I take to display the emotion, does no justice to the power of this film. Go Watch it! Now I just need to watch Brokeback Mountain to give my full opinion on the matter. Even if Crash is better than the "gay cowboy" movie, I still believe BBM should have won just for the sake of changing the minds of all Americans about homosexuals. We are all humans indeed.
    • I rode Expedition Everest after getting off of work Saturday. Some of you will probably remember that I tried to ride it during Cast Member (codename for a Disney theme park employee) previews in January, but the ride brokedown before I set foot on the "base of the mountain". I was expecting more out of the attraction, but it did not fail to impress me. I guess I'll need a second opinion, don't be surprised if I ride it again next month when it officially opens on April 7th, 2006.
    • After a hectic period last week of cramming sessions and procrastination, I finally took my Biology and Trigonometry tests on Thursday. What a relief it was when I successfully completed the last test Thursday evening, now I am free for a week because of Spring Break. I have nothing planned other than staying put in my house, rest, watch movies, and of course, blogging. So expect me to come by here and update with some new posts and visit some of my favorite blogs to read.
    This has been your Orange Update. Have a great day! --
    |W|P|114222079520189965|W|P|Orange Update: Spring Break Edition|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/13/2006 12:05:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|That sounds like an ideal way to spend spring break. Have a great vacation, V. J.3/13/2006 04:19:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|Congrats on finishing up the tests VJ. Enjoy your off time and btw... hispanic guys are hot! LOL Anyone who doesn't think so is just jealous because they don't have a nice year round tan :)3/14/2006 10:03:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|sounds like a safe way 2 spend your week. get online we can chat a bit.3/14/2006 09:47:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|You have been questioned my friend! :)3/15/2006 09:12:00 AM|W|P|Blogger karma lennon|W|P|I loved Crash too! After I watched it 5 times in the same week, I actually wrote about a whole big thing about it on my blog! Still haven't seen BB either but I think it'll be pretty good. :)3/15/2006 09:02:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|*Tapping little bare gay foot and wondering when he is going to see the answers to the interview questions he can't wait to read*
    Ok medium sized gay foot sheesh.3/12/2006 09:43:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P| I am happy with my set of wheels, even if it acts up and is expensive to maintain. The reality is that all automobiles are the same and attention is need to prevent it from malfunctioning. It is until recently that I figured out how important it is to check up on my car and keep it up to date. But even if I love my Mazda Protege, I have my sights on my "dream vehicle", it has changed from time to time and I recently changed my mind again on what my future car will be. The same way people appreciate the home they live in, it is improbable to believe no one has a defining "dream home" their present home does not fulfill. The same goes with the love of my current ride and the expectation of the successor, the all-new Dodge Caliber. Set to premiere later on this year with the 2007 group of vehicles. I may be teasing you when I mentioned I was accepting donations for my new car, but I am serious about my infatuation with the Caliber. It has great interior features including a cooler in the glove compartment for the canned and bottled drinks, folding rear seats (the Caliber is what I call a "hatchback", like the VW Beetle), and a connection that makes my music in the iPod Nano possible to hear legally in my car, without wearing my earphones. The exterior looks great, in short words, I have no complaints. All I asked was to color my car Orange and its possible to have the Caliber ordered with an Orange color scheme in and outside of the car. My mom shares my excitement for the new Dodge Caliber. She mentioned that she'll pay the down payment for me, so its a step forward for me as long as I find a way to pay the rest of my bills of the car. I am hopeful, but lets see what happens. -- |W|P|114195580896559813|W|P|My Future Ride: All-New 2007 Dodge Caliber (Now accepting donations)|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/12/2006 10:23:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|That's a pretty awesome looking whip! Dodge is finally trying to create a moderate-sized sport class vehicle that won't guzzle gas like the town lush in a bar on a Friday night. I think an orange scheme can work great; Imagaine a burnt-orange metallic base with a neon orange top separated by royal blue flames outlined in black. With a dark grey dash with orange highlights and gauges back-lit blue. The seats would be awesome if they were two-toned dark grey with orange panels and royal blue piping. And how about one of those full sun-roofs with cascading panels and a cool spoiler?! Dude, We just pimped your ride! As soon as you buy it that is...just gimme a call. LOL

    I have two dream cars. I'm almost motivated to post pics now. hehe.

    BTW, my AIM is GrYpHoN KyNkAyDe. MSN is forthcoming. Thanks for allowing me to add you.3/14/2006 07:23:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|LOL Bryan...
    I AM motivated to post of pic of my next dream car now LOL. Don't worry VJ I'll give you credit for the idea *wink*
    Just back here going over your blog again to get one last question. I should be posting your questions tonight.
    Gotta admnit that car is one hell of a nice looking car! Be watching for your questions :)3/09/2006 08:44:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|What a milestone, I have lived to type 100 posts about my life and my thoughts. I want to thank every one of my readers: Ryan (One of the first bloggers to leave a comment), Mike, Elmo (he loves everyone), Brad (I think you have the honor of being the first to read my whole entire blog), Bryan, James, DJ (I know you are still reading, he left me the first comment) and all of you who come back time after time. If I left you out of the "Thank You" list, just leave a comment and blame my memory for doing such a crime. Here is to 100,000 more posts, but I am going to take baby steps. So how about 100 more posts, that's more realistic. If there is one thing I want to accomplish while I am a blogger, is to make new friends. Luckily I have done just that. -- P.S. By the way, I have passed the 1,000th mark when it comes to visitors a few days ago.|W|P|114195509680358201|W|P|The Century Mark: 100th Post|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/09/2006 10:51:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|Hey, V. J.

    Happy 100th post, bud. I haven't known you very long but I enjoy your posts and comments. I look forward ot getting to know you better.

    You're welcome. Keep posting, my friend. :-)3/10/2006 02:10:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|VJ is a sweet kid with a GREAT heart and showed it to me earlier this evening at a time when I really needed the "pick me up." He is also, as everyone who reads him can tell, very intelligent and thoughtful.
    VJ has agreed to be interviewed by me here shortly. Be watching... he will be posting the results here.
    VJ I will give you only one clue as to what one of the five questions will be. You are going to have to go into more depth on the Bi-sexual thing bud LOL. Especially in the way I will ask the question. Still wanna go? hahaha!
    Love this guys brain, HEART and thoughts!3/10/2006 02:22:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|awesome vj 100th cant wait 4 more sending u atlanta hug (((hugs)))3/09/2006 07:49:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|
    O Thank Heaven. Too bad he's taken.
    Just when I thought American Idol was going to be a bust, it surprises me and the nation in being the top rated show for the past several weeks. I have always theorized that American Idol will lose viewers once the auditions phases down especially when there are no more horrible singers and characters to laugh at. I went in denial on the popularity of the show, especially during the Olympics (which I saw), but I had to admit and accept that fact that American Idol is far from being yesterdays news. It not only beat the Winter Olympic coverage in NBC, it is also draining viewers from other shows being aired at the same time AI is playing. I finally jumped in the bandwagon, even though I have mixed emotions about Ryan Seacrest. Not only because he is annoying, he demoralized the Winter Olympics!! He made a comment that if any one watching felt they were missing on the Winter games, Randy would volunteer and oil his round body and luge down the set. Ohh Seacrest, you thought it was funny, but now I despise you more then ever... Bitch! To be honest, I really don't hate Ryan, yes I am upset about the comment, but it was just a joke... No harm done. Anyways, Chris Daughtry is my favorite to win AI. He is handsome, beyond good-looking, he has a great voice and singing style that is one of kind. Out of everyone in AI, girls and boys, I am most likely buying a CD from Chris... Maybe Ace Young as well. Ace did great last night with singing Michael Jackson's unheard single "You give me butterflies". I am begging America to please not let me down. I want Chris to be the next Idol. Why am I so desperate for him to win? My favorite in AI's first season was Tamyra Gray, she was voted off from the top finalists. Last season, my favorite was Mario Vazquez but he withdrew from he competition for personal reasons. Do you get the drift? I can't wait for the opportunity to hear the sound of Chris' voice traveling from my iPod Nano to my earphones... That will be the day! -- [Photo: J. Viles/American Idol,FOX]
    |W|P|114195500089574108|W|P|My American Idol: Chris Daughtry|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/09/2006 10:59:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I won't really be able to give a wholely educated comment here, as I'm not a big fan of American Idol. I respect the hell out of the people who have the talent to get on the program and the ultimate winners. They have some unreal talent.

    I can see why people dig it. If only they wouldn't have preimpted House in order to air it. LOL3/11/2006 03:16:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|After how well you did on your other guesses... I damn sure wouldn't bet against you!!!3/14/2006 10:28:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Kiss My Mike|W|P|ok we're rooting for the same guy...let's be friends.. haha!

    i also like katherine!3/08/2006 04:51:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|I have loved watching short films ever since my mom bought our first DVD player in 2001. If my memory serves correctly, the DVD player brought a free DVD with the package about the Sundance Film Festival. There was a special section in the DVD featuring four short films. My mother and brother did not appreciate the experience of watching great short films because it was too short. I personally love short films (aka shorts) because it has a better artistic quality. Fast-forward five years to 2006, and the short film bug bit me again. I remembered how much I enjoyed watching those shorts five years ago that I was motivated to find information on the nominated movies for the Best Live Action Short Academy Award. I found out for the Internet Movie Database website that Cashback (one of the Oscar nominees) could be downloaded from iTunes (which I have). Great News! The better news was that I could also download all the Oscar nominees as well. Cashback is basically about a guy that works in a British grocery store and uses his imagination to freeze time, in order to make his shift go by quickly. While time is frozen, he undresses women and draws them nude but in an artistic taste. I enjoyed the first half of the movie, before I started watching boobs and female genitals. One reason is because there is a specific scene that is very homo-erotic, when a guy grabs a sausage and his friend makes believe he is giving him a blowjob. Is this what straight British guys do when they are bored while working in a grocery store? If it is, it's hilarious. All in all, I LOVED Cashback. Even more than most of the full length films I have seen. Cashback is a short movie you can see dozens of times and not get bored of the story, its that good! What really surprised me was that Sean Biggerstaff is the main character in Cashback. For those Harry Potter fans, Sean played Gryfindor Quidditch captain Oliver Wood in the first two HP movies. Talking about the boy wizard, Harry Potter was released yesterday (I am sure Bryan knows about that). I could not resist and bought the Special Edition DVD and the first Harry Potter movie to complete my (Years 1-4) DVD collection. Unfortunately, I have not completed watching the whole movie yet. And I never got to watch it when it was in theaters, which is more unfortunate... ehh, maybe not really unfortunate. I survived waiting longer than usual. -- |W|P|114185633141903847|W|P|Cashback and Harry Potter (Year 4)|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/08/2006 07:27:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|Oh, yes. Bryan knows about it. HAHA. *raises hand* Harry Potter geek here.

    I didn't know about Cashback though. It sounds like an excellent piece though. Sean Biggerstaff, though. Him I remember.

    I have a friend who makes his own indy films as part of his film courses in college. I agree with you. Some shorts are even better than featuer length films.3/09/2006 02:11:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|i love short films also.3/08/2006 04:18:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|There has been many speculation on why Brokeback Mountain lost the title as the Best Picture by the Academy (AMPAS). I have read articles from journalists and film critics that explain that Crash was a formidable winner that "we never saw it coming", meaning that Crash had its merits it was just not well recognized as Brokeback Mountain. To be honest, when the Oscar nominations were announced, I had no idea of the movies Crash and Capote. For Brokeback, being nominated to many categories including Best Picture gave me the impression that the Academy was going to start a movement for Gay rights. As fast and glorious the nomination for Best Picture came in, the joy and hope was blast down just as fast on Sunday. All I can say is that at least Brokeback got the nomination, that's better than no recognition, at all. Just like I read in Towleroad (the Blog), having the film made was already the real prize. I feel the same sentiment. In another article, I read Lionsgate gave Crash DVDs to the full membership of the Screen Actors Guild so they can view the movie at home. This campaign helped Crash because not only did it refresh the film's storyline to voters, but being that many live in Los Angeles (where Crash takes place) many Academy voters related to the racism in the movie. Is it a case of geography and film locations that dictates who gets the Oscar? I think so. Brokeback was filmed in Canada which probably ticked off some of the SAG union members and Academy voters. Or is it a case that Academy voters were "not ready for a gay cowboy movie". I guess so because it has been brought up to the attention of the media that many voters were too uncomfortable about the subject. I guess my film teacher was right, its all about politics when the Academy selects a winner for any award. To sum up, just because a film garners awards by the dozen before the Academy Awards, does not guarantee film makers will take Oscar home. In fact, Academy voters might back off from the bandwagon and vote against the grain. -- P.S. I guess I will join other Americans in rushing to the rental movie store and snatch a glimpse at Crash. While I am there I'll probably take home Brokeback Mountain (If its out on DVD yet) and other Oscar-nominated movies to see for myself what I have been missing. [Yahoo! Movies (Reuters): Why Brokeback Lost] [Yahoo! Movies: Should have seen signs of "Crash" coming] |W|P|114185465736842042|W|P|"Brokeback" Theory|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/08/2006 07:16:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I agree. The fact this film was made is a major consideration. I think the more important thing, is that it was a major release.

    Here's to hoping there will be more mainstream films with gay/lesbian/bi-sexual story-lines and characters.3/07/2006 12:14:00 AM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|I would have never thought I would have a brief update blog so soon. But to be honest I prefer to leave a number of brief posts than to write nothing. I guess updating my blog is the responsibility I have succumbed to when I decided to start my own blog a few months ago and I do not want to keep my readers waiting. With the Academy Awards happening a couple nights ago, I guess I should comment at least on one thing... I was so shocked that Brokeback Mountain was out-done by Crash for the Best Picture award. I have no problem with Crash getting Best Picture, I love underdog upsets, but I just wanted Brokeback Mountain to receive the highest honor as Best Picture from the Academy of Motion Pictures, Arts and Sciences. For me, which is hard to say without getting the opportunity to watch Brokeback, I was considering a win for the cowboy love movie as a platform to promote gay rights. A stepping stone, if you will, or a momentum changing night so then people all across America and the world may see that two guys/girls loving each other is just as humane as a heterosexual relationship. I have an article that I found on Yahoo! that analyses different theories on why Brokeback Mountain was shorthanded from a big win, I'll blog on that and many other findings later. All I can say now is congrats to all the winners. A lot of my favorites did not win, but at least all of the winners are deserving. Including those I picked to win (5 out of 6 is really not that bad of a record). -- |W|P|114170961980279337|W|P|Orange Update: "So Soon" Oscar Edition|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/07/2006 07:19:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|i was shock also that brokeback didn't win but least they got some awards.3/07/2006 08:46:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|I've had the opportunity to watch Brokeback Mountain, and found it to be a very moving film. I was suprised it didn't do better than it did on "Hollywood's Big Night", as well.

    Heath Ledger did some of his best acting in BM, in my opinion. And Ang Lee needs no praise - his work speaks for itself. Although I may get a cyber bitch-slap for saying so, I think he even did an awesome job directing and choreographing Hulk.

    There was a report of CBS Morning News last week discussing all the internet spoofs of the film. A gay activist being interviews said that ..."people are definetly watching it, becuase they're spoofing it. But Are they getting its message?"

    Did I get too off topic? LOL3/07/2006 10:15:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|*cyber bitch-slapping bryan*
    Mostly Bryan I did that just cause I think you wanted it hahaha! In reality I agree with your comments.
    I think what REALLY happened here is that the 'awards' board looked to get the "most mileage" out of the whole thing. They appeared to be progressive in that supposedly BM had the inside track. So they got all THAT mileage. Then in the end they give it to another really good film, also deserving. So they end up winning BOTH ways.3/07/2006 10:17:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|VJ-
    5 out of 6 would probably have picked you up some major bucks in Vegas!!!3/08/2006 08:36:00 AM|W|P|Blogger V.J. Civic|W|P|Too bad I am not leagl enough to try my luck in Las Vegas yet. I can not wait until I get back to Vegas, that will be a great 21st birthday celebration.

    If anything, save the date June 30, 2007.

    --
    To Bryan:

    You did not get off topic, at all. I apreciate any type of comment, the longer the better. I could not finish watching the Hulk, because I was bored but Ang Lee did a great artistic job with the movie. Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon I loved, I was just too busy reading the subtitles instead of enjoying the stunts.3/08/2006 03:09:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Mike|W|P|Wow you really did awesome picking the winners.3/08/2006 03:59:00 PM|W|P|Blogger V.J. Civic|W|P|Thanks. I did not notice how well I did until you reminded me in your comment. I was pulling for my favorites to win.

    --3/08/2006 07:11:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon is one of my favorite films. The entire ensamble was amazing...Yeah, I did martial arts too though. HAHA3/05/2006 11:55:00 AM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|It's that fabulous time of year again when the fine looking Oscar statuette is given away to it's new owners and well deserved winners, well maybe not well deserved. Sometimes the favorite nominees take the coveted prize, while other times a previously snubbed nominees gets a pitty award. Let me be frank, Denzel did not do a great job in Training Day, I think he did a better job in the movie Philadelphia. But that's my opinion. I would love to make this post a long one but I have to groom myself into a Hollywood superstar for tonight. Not to mention, I have to do homework!
    At first, I thought "Oscar" was holding a microphone (with the microphone stand), but I later found out it was a knight's sword. Silly me!
    BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESS: Rachel Weisz (I pick to win) BEST ACTRESS: Felicity Huffman (my favorite to win) Reese Witherspoon (I pick to win) BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR: Matt Dillon (my favorite to win) George Clooney (I pick to win) BEST ACTOR: Joaquin Pheonix (my favorite to win) Philip Seymour Hoffman (I pick to win) *sorry Heath Ledger BEST DIRECTOR: Ang Lee (my favorite and my pick to win) *Steven Spielberg and George Clooney are worthy, but Ang Lee brought us Brokeback Mountain BEST PICTURE: Brokeback Mountain (my favorite and my pick to win) *I think this year all films for best picture are worthy motion pictures, a contrast from last year. I had no favorites, just Ray. -- [Oscar.com: Official website of the Academy Awards] [Orlando Sentinel: Who will win (My cheat sheet)] [MSN Movies: When the Academy feels guilt]
    |W|P|114157975287435784|W|P|My Prediction: The Oscar goes to...|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/05/2006 03:24:00 PM|W|P|Blogger ElovesU|W|P|brokeback, still havent seen it...lol

    ELMO3/05/2006 07:39:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|omg me and my mom make a big night of the oscars we cuddle up together on the sofa eat popcorn and make fun of some of the outfits. im pulling 4 the gay cowboys!3/05/2006 09:04:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|A fellow film buff, huh? I usually just check the entertainment section of the paper the morning after. hehe. My real love is the movies.

    Those are very educated choices. I have to admit, I agree with you on most, but I thought Walk The Line might get a nod - to be more honest, I hoped it would win.

    Brokeback Mountain was a great movie. Heath Ledger did some of his best acting in that film. And I've been a fan of Ang Lee's since Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon.3/06/2006 12:31:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Mike|W|P|You did pretty good with your picks.3/05/2006 10:39:00 AM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|
    It's only right to write about America, after I wrote about Canada.
    So many things to write about, but where to begin... Got it! Let's start with my last post. I want to reiterate that I am, in no shape or form, ashamed of being an American or hate to be an American. If I would have to describe a righteous feeling of what I feel as a proud American, it would be disappointment. I am disappointed on the polarization of this country that I blame on the leader of this nation. President Bush gives a bigger priority in fighting a false war, that many people do not support, than to protect Americans from an imminent disaster like Hurricane Katrina. Now we know that he was fairly warned about the possible destruction of Hurricane Katrina, but decided to brush it off as a joke. All in the cost of millions of lives lost and changed, forever. President Bush and his administration complacently took the advice and failed to prepare for the war against nature. If my memory serves correctly, wasn't there reports that the Bush administration failed to act and prevent the attacks of September 11th from happening. I understand that no one is perfect and that many people make mistakes. I forgave Bush for passing on intelligence about the 9/11 attacks, but to do the same mistake on Hurricane Katrina... That's just nuts. I am disappointed because I believe that America can do better. America is being led by incompetent leaders (to be fair on President Bush), that same the same mistake twice. The late, President Ronald Reagan, was a Republican and in my opinion a great leader. The reason why I point that out is I am not picking on Bush because he is not a Democrat, he is deserving of my rants because the latest findings and polls indicate the majority of proud Americans have no confidence in President Bush and his administration. For that reason, that disdain is trickled down and felt by our American troops serving in Iraq. In the St. Petersburg trip I made a few weeks ago, in the final night of the conference when all of my colleague and fellow students from all across Florida was treated not only to food and entertainment for the accomplishments from the four days of the event. I was touched when the Florida Junior Community College Student Government Association (that was a mouthful) recognized a Marine that returned for a tour of duty just a few months back. He indicated that he was proud of being a Marine, mentioning the motto of the USMC "Semper Fidelis", always faithful. Even though he may not agree, or sure, the reason why he was in Iraq, he along with his fellow Marines were faithful to the USMC and to the United States of America. He expressed concerns that Americans who do not support the war, are not giving the support to the troops. "We are all different with adverse values and beliefs, I myself am different because I do not believe we were brought to Iraq for the right reasons. Even if you do not support the war and our Commander in Chief, all I ask of you and all Americans is for your loyalty and appreciation", that's what that Marine said in the dinner. In Ryan's blog posts, he took the time to thanks all troops and inspired me to go on the next step and thank all American soldier serving in Iraq and all around the world. Ryan along with me, have reasons why we are not enlisted to serve. I totally respect his reasons and believe he is not a coward for not serving a country that rejects his rights as a homosexual. With that mentioned I respect and have more admiration for all homosexual soldiers that have to hide a part of themselves to serve a country that fails to overcome intolerance and grants us equal rights. It reminds me of a story I saw in the closing ceremony of the XX Olympic Winter Games of Torino. Tom Brokaw interviewed an African American soldier of WWII, considered as a hero in Italy and finally got his recognition with a Medal of Honor, awarded to him by President Clinton. In short, Vernon Baker led his all black infantry division after his white commanding officer abandoned his post. Despite fighting for a country that demoralized African Americans, he said that "If we were not fighting for America, then who are we fighting for. The Country [USA] is all we have." It took decades before he has rewarded with highest achievement, the Medal of Honor. I foresee that homosexual soldiers will get the rights that many deserve. All that we have is to hope and have faith that one day the US government will do the American thing and treat everyone equally. I am disappointed, but I am hopeful that America will soon prosper the same way or Founding Fathers intended it to be. Once again, Thanks to all the American Soldiers. You are all brave and deserve a lot more respect than what you are getting right now. If only I can get to hug and shake the hands of all of you guys, may it be that they are male or female, gay or straight, hot or not (just a little joke). God Bless America, and Our Troops. May they all come back safely home. -- [Ryan's Blog Post: Support the Troops] [NBC Olympics: Lasting Valor (Story of Vernon Baker)]
    |W|P|114157765160444397|W|P|Proud to be an American... And to Support the Troops (not the War)|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/05/2006 03:00:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|Ahhh bless you! There needs to be alot more of this line of thought. There are many of us who feel the need to serve, but at a very high cost to our personal lives. Much of this applies to me and it is a very difficult thing to have to live with at best. Things are changing ever so slowly. I for instance will never reap the benefits of being allowed to serve and openly admitt to being gay. But as long as it happens EVENTUALLY and those who follow have a chance do as their heart leads them without having to trade one thing for another... well better late than never. Thanks for your post!3/05/2006 03:21:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Brad|W|P|And... after having now perused much of your blog and having enjoyed the experience, I am linking you to mine! Good blog VJ!3/05/2006 07:41:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|awesome post!3/05/2006 09:19:00 PM|W|P|Blogger Bryan|W|P|My goodness, but that was well said. I have a gay friend in the Army, stationed in Iraq (I won't mention his name. As you pointed out, hiding one's sexuality is a common practice in the armed forces.).

    I will add this, though. If, indeed, the rumors are true about Bush having previous knowledge of a pending attack, and he chose not to do anything, there's no way I'd forgive him for his lack of action. One begs the question, if he didn't take it seriously, why was he in Florida reading to school children on the day it happened instead of in the White House? Mere coicidence?

    Forgive me for getting sidetracked. That was an excellent post.

    Take care.3/01/2006 05:16:00 PM|W|P|V.Jay Kendall|W|P|
    The National Flag of Canada (a.k.a. Maple Leaf). The pride and joy of all Canucks.
    It's very interesting to observe things from another point of view. While I was browsing the Canadian Broadcasting Corporation, after I read Olympic-related commentary that CBC did a better job covering the Winter Olympics than American network NBC, I could not stop to imagine how life in Canada really is like. I obviously do not hear news about a major problem with Canadians fleeing their country to immigrate here. Besides, in my opinion, there is no need to because their government, or at least the lifestyle of all Canadians maybe the same or even better than the USA. Now, I do not want anyone to get the idea that I am unpatriotic, or that I hate this country because it is not the message I want people to interpret. I love this country and the history behind it. I even love all of my fellow Americans, although I may not agree with all of them. Just because I, and many others that may share a part of my opinion, disagree with the government, it does not entitle me as being shameful of my American roots. With that mentioned, I digress... One reason why I would say life may be better in Canada is because of the news article I read Monday about Quebec (A province or state in Canada) priests questioning the Vatican on their position on homosexuality. In some cases, they refuse to "promote" a priest if a Catholic official suspects him as a homosexual. If you may permit me to get off topic here, why don't the Vatican and therefore American officials worry about priests that are molesting children instead of refusing deserved promotions for homosexual priests. If not, then punish pedophile priests to level the playing field. The Vatican along with the non-religious American government should learn how to sort their priorities. Being a homosexual is not a punishable crime. If Canada and heavily Catholic Spain, among other countries, have no problems granting civil rights to homosexuals, I do not see why the USA (My home, sweet, home) can not do the same and follow our Constitution. A priceless document so important, that citizens from around the world study every word, some thing not every American does (including me). Anyways, back on topic, would it be curious to know how it is like to be a Canadian for a day. I do not see myself other than an American residing in Florida, so I am not planning to flee my country any time soon. It is just that I would like to know how life is like in another country, similar to mine. The same way that Team Canada has been close behind Team USA in the past two Winter Olympics, when it comes to its athletic prominence, so is the country of the Maple Leaf breathing down Uncle Sam's neck. I wondered why a good friend of mine, that I just met through the blogosphere, planned to move to another country later on, in his life. I now understand why, even though I am staying put on this side of the border, I respect his decision even more. Well, on second thought, if Americans do not elect a Democrat (and maybe, a Woman), I may consider on becoming an American Canadian... With very, very careful thought... OK, maybe not! -- [CBC News: Quebec priests challenge Vatican on homosexuality] [Wikipedia: The Flag of Canada]
    |W|P|114108396961690573|W|P|The Canadian Perspective|W|P|vjorange@hotmail.com3/02/2006 05:34:00 AM|W|P|Blogger Ryan|W|P|i watch everyday i dont get it why people didnt watch.3/04/2006 03:21:00 AM|W|P|Blogger ElovesU|W|P|damn, u dont like the us too much huh

    ELMO3/04/2006 03:24:00 AM|W|P|Blogger ElovesU|W|P|Ive missed u
    ELMO3/04/2006 01:18:00 PM|W|P|Blogger V.J. Civic|W|P|No, I love the USA. Its just that I don't like the way its being led. I just hope there is a light in the end of this very dark tunnel.

    About the Olympics... People watched 'Idol' instead of the games. Very unfortunate, but at least I, and you (Ryan), got to watch it.

    I miss you too, E!

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